"To the impartial eye, the world not only seems an unlikely one-off phenomenon, but a constant strain on reason. If reason exists, that is, if a neutral reason exists. So speaks the voice from within. So speaks Joker's voice." - Jostein Gaarder

Thursday, October 04, 2007

The shaved me up, cut my hair, and dressed me up so I can be "presentable" for my parents funeral.

I have broke that last bridge that connects me to this place.

May they rest in peace.


Blogger Wassim said...

Amen. Umm...sorry I think I'm unaware of what's happened. I thought you were on holiday and all was going well. How are you feeling?

October 04, 2007 8:47 PM

Blogger أُمنية said...

i opened the link from syplanet thinking that u have quotoed these lines from a novel or something.

i don't know what to say.
Be patient.

October 04, 2007 9:05 PM

Blogger Katia said...


October 04, 2007 9:55 PM

Blogger Golaniya said...

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October 04, 2007 10:47 PM

Blogger Golaniya said...

I was praying nothing bad happened.
Yazan you're not on your own.
May their souls rest in peace.

October 04, 2007 10:52 PM

Blogger DUBAI JAZZ said...

La 7awl wa la kuwat ila billah…
Hang in there my friend…

October 04, 2007 11:59 PM

Blogger Soraya said...

My condolences Yazan Im so sorry for your loss.
الله يصبرك

October 05, 2007 12:28 AM

Blogger Ihsan said...

umm, what?
I'm in shock...what happened? Sorry to hear that....

i'd better sgut up

October 05, 2007 2:21 AM

Blogger Andre said...

May their souls rest in peace Yazan, i am so sorry for your loss


October 05, 2007 3:15 AM

Blogger Deeeeeee said...

Terribly sorry for your loss! Albaqaa' Lellaah! Hang in there!

October 05, 2007 3:23 AM

Anonymous sillybahrainigirl said...

Sorry for your loss.

October 05, 2007 3:35 AM

Blogger Omar said...

I'm really sorry to hear the news Yazan. I just want you to know that we're all here for you.

October 05, 2007 3:53 AM

Blogger poshlemon said...


I came here looking for your good news and some new post. I did not expect to see this. I guess this is life; it is so harsh that one day things may cease to be.

In these situations, I don't know how to behave or what to say or whether it matters. But I offer you my condolescences and I am very terribly sorry. It's a great loss.

Be tough.

October 05, 2007 5:11 AM

Anonymous Rime said...

My dear Yazan, I've been looking for you virtually, checking your blog every few hours ever since I heard the devastating news yesterday. I can't imagine how you feel, and I can't imagine that words can be meaningful now.

Please know that you have a shoulder to cry on, an older sister to talk to, or a friend to sit in silence with you in Damascus, should you want it.

May they rest in peace, and I pray that you find the strength you need to make your own peace. You're on my mind a lot Yazan, and we are all with you in spirit.

October 05, 2007 5:36 AM

Blogger DUBAI JAZZ said...

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October 05, 2007 6:31 AM

Blogger DUBAI JAZZ said...

I just want to second what Rime said and say what I failed to express the first time; we are all here for you Yazan, you are never alone…

October 05, 2007 6:37 AM

Blogger saint said...

I knew you through the syplanet and through your writing. It saddened me to hear about your loss. I got to know your parent through your writing. I can tell that your parents are valuable people with message, your courage in these difficult days and your continuity with their message are the remedy for this loss. My condolence to you my friend and may they rest in peace.

October 05, 2007 6:59 AM

Blogger Abu Kareem said...


I am very sorry for your loss and may they rest in peace. Yazan, as Golaniya said, you are not alone; you have many friends thinking of you at this difficult time.

October 05, 2007 9:00 AM

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Yazan, I am very sorry as well...I am lost in my words but please be patient and stay with your friends...


October 05, 2007 9:09 AM

Blogger Sam... said...

My Condolences.....
Be Strong,
we are all here with you.

October 05, 2007 9:28 AM

Blogger Sam Kerbeck said...

Dear Yazan,

My condolences and deepest sympathy. I pray for their souls. May God be on your side and help you through this.


October 05, 2007 9:39 AM

Blogger Olavia Kite said...

All this time I've been coming back to your blog in hopes of finding that this is just a quote. It's devastating and confusing to find out it isn't.

My sincere condolences. I pray you find strength in such terrible circumstances. I'm here for you.

October 05, 2007 10:46 AM

Blogger tamatem * said...

My deepest condolences Yazan
I pray that God gives you strength and patience to get through this hardship
الله يرحمهون

October 05, 2007 10:55 AM

Anonymous Anonymous said...

I don't know what to say and I don't know how I can help by typing few words ... I wish I was in Syria to try to support you.

I can not even imagine the strength one needs to deal with it... But from what I know about you, you are a very strong young man.

Allah yer7amon, Yazan. You are a very special young man, and I'm sure you are the product of very special parents.

Please email me your cell number if you ever need to speak about anything at an hour when everyone in Syria is sleeping ... I'll be awake in Canada and I can call you.


October 05, 2007 2:09 PM

Blogger Sam said...

wow...im so sorry...may they rest in peace inshallah...allah yer7amhom!

October 05, 2007 2:19 PM

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Allah yerhamon

You have all my sympathy and condolences.

October 05, 2007 3:48 PM

Blogger abufares said...

No words ever come close to express the feelings we go through when we lose our beloved.
Your tragedy has hit all of us hard but other than praying to God so that he may rest their souls and wishing you the blessing of patience, we can only ponder in humility and submission.
Rahama Allah your Parents and I just ran out of words.

October 05, 2007 7:00 PM

Blogger Roba said...

Amen. *hug*

October 05, 2007 7:03 PM

Blogger Katia said...


I've read this post so many times hoping that the words might change if I tried one more time or that I was missing something and not getting it right.

But it seems to be there to stay... I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I know that nothing I could say would be good enough, but for what it's worth... I feel for you. Be strong.

May they rest in peace.

October 05, 2007 7:25 PM

Blogger Shadi said...

Dear Yazan
Losing the beloved is one cruel tragedy, our hearts and souls are with you.
I pray to God to give you patience and strength. Rahmato Allah on your parents, and may their souls rest in peace.

October 05, 2007 7:32 PM

Blogger The Syrian Brit said...

My dear Yazan,
No words will ever go anywhere near describing how devastated for you I felt on hearing the sad news.. Equally, no words I can ever say would ever come near to alleviating the pain that you must be feeling..
Like Rime, Alex, Abu Kareem, Golaniya, and all your cyberfriends have said.. You are not alone..
I second Alex's offer.. E-mail me your cellphone number if you wish to talk to an older brother..
May they both rest in peace, and may your true strength and character see you through this dark tunnel..

October 05, 2007 8:23 PM

Blogger Tony Bey said...

I'm very sorry for your immense loss.

October 05, 2007 8:38 PM

Blogger Lujayn said...

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October 06, 2007 8:02 AM

Blogger Lujayn said...

You can break any bridge you want, but the most important thing is that they will live on through you, and you are a witness to their values and consciences. I do not know them, but I know them through you, and that is a great tribute to them as parents and human beings. Yazan, we are all here for you, anytime you need, you have a hundred friends to fall back on. Its a tough time, but I do know you will eventually be ok. Love you, kiddo!

October 06, 2007 8:20 AM

Blogger Zaid Al-Faham said...

I'm sorry ,may they rest in peace

October 06, 2007 12:17 PM

Blogger Shady Zayat said...

Yazan, I've been staring at this page for the whole day. Once again: May they rest in peace.

October 06, 2007 4:46 PM

Blogger Syrian in London said...

Every word i write will be one already said. I'm sad for you loss and may God have mercey on their souls and give you the patiance to go on.

October 06, 2007 4:54 PM

Blogger Hovic said...

Accidentally I heard from Syplanet.com page. So sorry to hear this. May they rest in peace.

Hovic And Abd.

October 07, 2007 4:58 AM

Blogger nightS said...

I'm sorry for your loss...
may they rest in peace!

October 07, 2007 6:31 AM

Blogger KJ said...

3atham Allah ajrakom... we are all here for you bro :)

October 07, 2007 3:19 PM

Anonymous David Sasaki said...

Yazan, my heart goes out to you - there is no greater loss. Stay strong and surround yourself with loving friends and family.

October 07, 2007 6:08 PM

Blogger Omar the Royal Blue said...


October 07, 2007 6:51 PM

Blogger Nas said...

my deepest condolences Yazan.

October 07, 2007 10:15 PM

Blogger GottfriedStutz said...

Dear Yazan,

I am still in shock. I hope that you will realise how many of us stand with you. I need not hope for you to find courage; you have loads of it already.

I am thinking of you.

October 08, 2007 3:52 PM

Blogger Kinano said...

Sorry for your loss man!

Death is a part of life, there's nothing better than accepting it. I hope they're in a better place right now.

October 08, 2007 4:46 PM

Anonymous sleepless said...

Dear Yazan
Just read in the news about your parents; I do not know you personally but I read your blog all the time because I simply admire you. My heart aches and my tears fall; I wish I could do anything except praying for you and wishing you all the strength that I am sure you HAVE. You have always shown your readers what a strong and bright person you are and I'm quite sure your strength will guide you through this turmoil.
God Bless you
Alah Ykoon ma'ak ya Yazan. Alah yrhamoun

October 09, 2007 7:22 AM

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Regarding this tragedy:


Those are people to be proud of! Not only you lost them; we all did!

October 10, 2007 8:22 AM

Blogger sasa said...


I don't know if these words can help at all. I am with you in spirit my friend. If you need someone to speak to, or to write to, I am here.

May their souls rest in peace, and may your heart eventually find some comfort.


October 11, 2007 2:53 AM

Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am so sorry to hear this. Alla yer7amon w yer7amna.

be strong...Alla ysabrak

October 11, 2007 8:01 AM

Blogger The Free Man said...

Even we don't know each other, but i think we share the same dream. I know words will mean nothing, i realy feel sorry for you, and i want you to know that we also share pain and happiness.

October 11, 2007 9:18 AM

Anonymous Naim Nazha said...

I am so sorry , Words are hard to express my feelings.
If you need anything , Iam here for you.

October 11, 2007 11:07 AM

Blogger George Ajjan said...

My condolences Yazan, I just found this out from SASA's blog.

October 11, 2007 1:59 PM

Blogger Moey said...

I don't know you, but god be with you and don;t feel bad, its gods well.

October 12, 2007 9:40 AM

Blogger moryarti said...

انا لله وانا اليه راجعون

habibi yazan... i just got the shocking news...

Allah yer7amon we ysaknon el janneh enshallah; khatmet el a7zan enshallah. Hang in there buddy.

We are all here for you..

October 13, 2007 6:47 AM

Blogger Shannon said...

I have never met you, may never even meet you, but I know the feeling of losing a parent. I'm so very sorry for your tragic loss. I always check your blog, and it sounds strange, but you are always someone who gives me hope. May your parents rest in peace and I sincerely hope you are surrounded by friends and family during this difficult time.

October 13, 2007 7:19 AM

Anonymous Anonymous said...

we're all here to support you yazan..please reach out for our hands when u need...dont pull back.. i wont say that i can understand how you feel..but..i'm just here..hang in there

October 13, 2007 9:14 PM

Anonymous Anonymous said...

^^ lujain.

October 13, 2007 9:25 PM

Blogger i*maginate said...

I gulped, I cried.

I am sorry.

We are all with you.

May God rest their souls in peace.

If you *ever* feel like it, please email me in confidence


I will pray for you.

October 14, 2007 6:50 PM

Blogger nzm said...

I've read your blog so many times Yazan and never commented.

May your parents find peace, and all thoughts with you in this time.


October 14, 2007 10:24 PM

Anonymous Anonymous said...

I don't know you, I can't even imagine how it feels, be patient.

October 14, 2007 11:58 PM

Anonymous Anonymous said...


October 15, 2007 8:07 AM

Blogger CG said...

I do not know you nor your pain, but I am sure there can be no greater suffering.
May they be in peace.
The world is thinking of you in this tragic time. Stay strong.

October 15, 2007 2:17 PM

Anonymous ammoontie said...

Dear Yazan,
My condolences and deepest sympathy. May Allah Bless their souls.

October 15, 2007 10:18 PM

Blogger [ j i m m y ] said...

i'm in search for words, yazan, and i can't seem to find any. maybe i'll read some of your old texts for inspiration.

life's a whore, and we knew it didn't we. and we thought that by shouting it loudly, we would be covered; we thought the echoes would shield us. fooled by our own fears. and we thought that by expecting the worst, we'll manage to avoid it. no surprises was our policy wasn't it.

and then it came. that squeaky noise. on that random morning. that phone call. unexpectedly. just when we thought we were safe.

yazan, i read your words and i re-read them and i still don't know where to start, what to feel and what to say. it's been 12 days already. i should have read them earlier. i should have left you a note. or perhaps done something. anything. should have been there for you. after all, that's what fans (and friends) are for.

but i missed it all. i missed that dark moment when you stood, face-to-face with life, looking her straight in the eyes with all the anger of the universe summed up in your pupils, and asked her the question, and waited for an answer.

or maybe you weren't waiting for an answer, were you. and you shouldn't. you should just keep going, knowing that they are alive in you. and you should know that the bridges that connect you to your home will never be burned, yazan. in fact they've just been inaugurated. your stupid corner is now an entire planet. the sacred earth that will always smell her perfume. and the northern wind that will eternally whisper his name.

hang in there old'boy. and don't you dare, even for the blink of a second, think that you're alone.

October 16, 2007 12:26 AM

Blogger D said...

My condolences...

October 16, 2007 12:43 AM

Blogger Paige said...

I read about your tragedy on Abu Fares' blog. I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a parent is an indescribable pain. Your loss is just incomprehensible. Condolences from Oklahoma. I think you're an inspiration and a very strong person, and if anyone can get through this ok, it will be you.

October 16, 2007 10:57 PM

Blogger Qabbani said...

Am so sorry to hear this
3azama allah ajracom , i heard about an accident here for Syrian family but never thought i will know them.. :(
i feel bad now

again Allah yer7amhom

October 17, 2007 6:11 PM

Blogger Shaykhspeara Sha'ira said...

I am sorry to hear of your loss through Moryarti. There are no words that suffice, but my prayers are with you and your parents.

October 18, 2007 4:24 AM

Blogger Hammam said...

هذه كلمات تركتها على مدونة ريم حيث صدمت بالنبأ

!وما أقول ليزن
تعجز الكلمات
بالمصادفة أقرأ رواية الجبل الخامس لباولو كويلو
وعلى لسان "إلايجا" النبي الإسرائيلي يقول

"O lord, today is the Day of Atonement, and my list if sins against thee is long," he said toward Jerusalem. "I have been weak, for I have forgotten my strength. I have been compassionate when I should have been firm. I have failed to choose, for fear of making the wrong decision. I have yielded before the time to do so, and I have blasphemed when I should have given thanks.”

“Still, Lord, I have also a long list of Thy sins against me. Thou hast made me suffer more than was just, by taking from this world one that I loved. Thou hast destroyed the city that received me, Thou hast confounded my search, Thy harshness almost made me forget the love I have for Thee. For all that time I have struggled with Thee, yet Thou dost not accept the worthiness of my combat.”

“If we compare the list of my sins with the list of Thy sins, Thou shalt see that Thou art in my debt. But, as today is the Day of Atonement, give my Thy forgiveness and I shall forgive Thee, so that we may go on walking at each other’s side.”

هذه الكلمات ليست لبث روح التدين
بل تتلمس صراعا وألما داخليا تفيض به النفوس الإنسانية عند المحن و لحظات الألم

إنا لله وإنا إليه.... راجعون

اللهم ارحم أبوي يزن

اللهم ارحم يزن

اللهم ارحمنا

October 19, 2007 8:55 PM

Blogger BuJ said...

Inna lillah wa inna ilayhi raji3oon.

Al Baqiya bi 7ayatak ya Yazan


October 20, 2007 6:49 AM

Blogger poshlemon said...

Hey Yazan,

I just wanted to drop a line and say "hello" and that you're in my prayers.

October 25, 2007 8:29 AM

Anonymous Peteris said...

I am so sorry to hear that. Please, be strong... :(

October 28, 2007 12:04 AM

Blogger inmotion said...


I don't know you and that in itself does not matter. Its little pieces of life like this that bring people together. This is unfortnately how we all know each other. The recognition in someone's eyes or the realization that the pain may be understood when you hear it in their voices or read it in their words is the ultimate link between all of us.

I read from a friend's blog about your loss. I am sad for your loss and I can only imagine what it must feel like ..

But like so many have already said .. you are not alone. You have all of us to fall back on .. whether or not we were friends before or ever ..

Allah yirhamhon .. and may you find patience to deal with this

and everytime you think you can't take it anymore, just call on one of us .. we are here to help ..

the bond hasn't been broken you know .. its only taking a new shape .. and a broader one ..

October 28, 2007 1:32 PM

Blogger annie said...

Dear Yazan
Where are you ?
Courage, cher ami.

November 01, 2007 4:40 PM

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dearest ever yazan..
i wish I had been able to reach you in better circumstances.. I just knew about this tragedy..i have nothing 2 say really..i struggled 2 find the right words 2 say !! but it seems like I failed.. may their souls be blessed.. wt I know 4 sure is that they must b resting in peace because they know they left a phenomenal piece of them in this life..and that is you my friend..
Be strong….
Laila Joud..

November 24, 2007 10:01 PM

Anonymous Anonymous said...

“Love is stronger than death even though it can't stop death from happening, but no matter how hard death tries it can't separate people from love. It can't take away our memories either. In the end, life is stronger than death.”

peace be with you and god bless your family.

November 25, 2007 6:55 AM


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